i have been struggling, i mean really struggling with getting back into a normal morning routine. or just a routine in general. a new way of doing things. a new way of life, if you will.
what used to be easy for me to wake-up at 4:30 in the morning
now seemslike a struggle.
even writing blog posts
have become a challenge for me.
i underestimated the effects such a big move would have on me
as a person
as a mother
and as someone who classifies herself as an entrepreneur.
a (struggling) entrepreneur.
i found myself comparing my old life
to the new.
i found myself trying to take pieces of it
pieces of who i was then
and making the mistake of trying to
marry them to who i am now.
and truth is,
i cannot do that.
to be successful.
to truly move forward
i had to let go
who meant me no good.
it was pruning season.
i had to embrace a new way of life.
a new way of doing things.
i mean that is what change is all bout, right?
finding a new way of doing things
to achieve bigger
and better outcome .
to learn new lessons.
have new life experiences.
but how can one reap the full benefit of change
if one cannot separate
the old from the new.
i spent a lot of time
talking about what i used to do
and how i used to prepare for my day.
i how once had this entire routine
that rendered to the growing of my blog.
i spent even more time
trying to reclaim that.
trying to replicate the birmingham version of me.
a lot of failed mornings of trying to get up at 4:30
trying to knock out content like i did once before.
trying to do everything i once did
back in time that i was not totally happy
so why would i want to replicate that?
why would someone put so much energy
and time into the “use to” instead of generating a
new way of doing life.
needless to say, i had to switch it up.
so instead of getting up at 4:30 am
i now get up at 5:30 a.m.
unless i’m just really tired,
then i give myself the freedom to sleep
until my body says it needs no more.
listening to other “gurus”
and other solopreneurs in my field,
or just in general
will have you thinking that if you don’t wake up
before the sun
then you are NOT passionate enough about your business.
about your success.
about your life.
and that is not true.
for me that is not true.
it is a about balance.
so while every morning i may not wake up at 5:30am
i also am not sleeping my life way.
i give myself the freedom to operate
in a space that is holistically
and spiritually pleasing unto me.
we put a lot of pressure on ourselves
when we go about listening to one
“expert” after the other.
we pay them all this money
only to discover that in the end
how they do life is by their choice.
by whats best for them.
and it doesn’t matter how much money
you invest into them
if it’s robbing you of the chance to
invest into yourself.
stopping applying unncessary pressure
and find what works for me.
then stick with it.
make adjustments where needed.
and make no apologies for how YOU
choose to operate in your own life.
in your own purpose.
i was queen of getting up early
going to bed late
just to get up early again.
now, i have a bed-time.
i have a bedtime
and i freaking love it.
unless you are my mother
or apart of my daughter’s care team
do not call me
or facebook me after 10:30p
because more than likely
my phone is already on “do not disturb”
(the greatest feature known to man)
the days of me getting up at 4:30am
to be in bed well after midnight
just to get back up at 4:30
first of all, its freaking stressful.
nobody can operate off such
and what are you really doing with your time?
are you really being productive?
or is this timeline just making you “feel” productive
with a false sense of hustle.
to fully function at my best
i need sleep.
sleep is a must.
balance is a must.
and taking the time out to ensure that at least
get 6 hours of sleep
won’t make me any less successful than the next person.
you have to take care of self.
there is no way around it.
i have dropped a lot of weight.
like a lot.
and not on purpose either.
it just kind of started to fall off me
with the new eating habits that was
“forced” upon me.
note: and by “forced” i mean that my family is conscious about
the things they put into their bodies.
every time i bring oreos or chocolate ice cream into the house
i feel like i’m sneaking in contraband lol!
nonetheless, i have become more aware of the things i eat.
and that’s not to say i ate like a pig prior to this move
because i didn’t
but snacking as ALWAYS been my problem.
anyway, i started yoga yall.
and i love it.
it was needed.
it keeps me grounded.
allows me to keep my mind open and clear.
helps me to meditate and drown out the
negative forces that surround me.
it has definitely made me a calmer
more relaxed individual.
it forces me to push myself
to test out my physical
mental and emotional
the one thing that has remained constant
is my daily time with god.
what has changed is the amount of time spent with him.
the way i talk to him.
sit and listen to him.
it has become deeper.
because i am in a new season of life.
i am being prepared for something
great-er and everyday he gives little signs
that victory is on its way.
to be honest,
i was a little depressed when i first got here.
its an overwhelming place to be
when the only people you truly know is
having not lived here since i was a small child,
it is an unfamiliar place for me.
i am no longer a child visiting for summer vacations
but i am now an adult here to make a life
for me and my
it can absolutely be a scary place
when when has no idea where to go
or where to turn.
survival of the fittest.
whenever one moves
whenever one makes a life-altering decision
you cannot take on the tasks to precede it
with the same mindset you had once
change the way you think
change the way you address problems.
stop thinking about who you once were
and start living in your now.
master your thoughts.