self-discovery is a beautiful thing.
i am never not learning about the complexities that make up briannepatrice.
over the summer and in the last few months i began to notice certain things about myself i never noticed before.
or maybe i just didn’t take the time to notice them.
i’m an empath
and while most think that being an empath means that you are a crybaby or overly sensitive
(both of which are true about me given the situation, esp the crybaby part).
it also means to be intuitive.
it’s about honing in on (and sometimes being affected by) the feelings and/or moods of others.
feeding off their energy,
rather positive or negative.
and in realizing that it has helped me to de-clutter my personal space a bit.
to rid my life of toxins.
only allowing those who choose love over hate.
positive over negative.
optimism over pessimism.
into my space.
it has helped me to be more conscious of how i interact with others.
and who i choose to interact with.
i am 28 soon to be 29 and i just don’t have time for negative nancys.
i don’t have time for those who would rather complain,
than come to some sort of resolve.
those who like to play victim.
or place blame.
those who want to be mad and/or angry all the time.
i don’t have the time for it.
i don’ have the energy for it.
and i will not allow it to interrupt this safe haven
i have created to protect my spirit.
i need positive reinforcement
i need to be fed spiritually.
my mind needs to be stimulated.
i cannot pour into others
and they cannot pour into me
if i am constantly drained
or muted by the negativity of others.
so don’t take it personal if i choose to not allow you into my space
i merely protecting the best interest of me.
all that i am.
and all that i will become.
i require a certain level of balance/order
to be completely honest my home is often a reflection of
my personal life.
or sometimes, lack there of.
if my house is a mess, my life is a mess.
if my house is together, my life is together.
and i mean this both, figuratively
i work hard to keep a clean house.
allowing bright and airy spaces.
to make sure my (soon to be) husband is fed.
and well respected.
that the chirren are bathed.
that their minds are cultivated with things not involving spongebob or some other asinine cartoon character.
clothes are folded and put away.
we run off honesty.
there is no yelling,
just open dialogue between the two us.
and our number one rule: no going to bed angry
always reminding each other that regardless of what issues arise
he loves me
i love him
and together there is nothing that we can’t work through.
their well being is my well being.
when they are happy.
when he is happy.
then i am happy.
and that means that my mind is free.
it is clear.
it is open.
and it is focused.
i need time to fully operate in my creative space, uninterrupted.
i need time to write.
to nurture my soul.
and feed my spirit.
and i need this with little to no interruption.
i need to be able to fully express myself.
to feel openly.
this makes for a more rounded person.
and more productive person.
lessening feelings of being trapped.
or feeling closed.
i’m not left starving.
or feeling unfulfilled.
writing has always been my best form of self expression.
and to have that taken away from me.
or to be limited in nature
doesn’t give me the freedom to just be
understanding who i am makes me a better
knowing who we are as a person helps us to understand our interactions with other people.
with our friends.
even our children.
it helps to determine how we should spend our time?
or who we should spend our time with.
what we should or should not invest our energy into.
it helps us to control our emotions.
knowing our trigger points.
knowing what drives
or motivates us.
it helps us to know how we work.
what projects we should dedicate our time to?
and those that we should respectfully decline.
it’s about being in tune with oneself.
knowing who we are is a primal part of our decision making
and thought processes.
our willingness to accept love
or turn away from it.
so i challenge you for the next 60-90 days to just pay attention to even the smallest of detail, pointing out three key things that will help you to better understand yourself as a person.
and then determine how these characteristics or traits affect your day to day living?
just your life in general.
and if, you already have some kind of idea, drop them in the comments.
would love to hear from you!